Some of you may have noticed that I have been lax in posting the last few months… the truth of the matter is, I’ve been lax in everything for the last few months as I’ve battled through a deep-blue depression funk depression.
A variety of factors influenced these feelings… but the driving force/factor was my job and career... or rather, the lack thereof.
Something happened within me and I’ve turned a corner this past week. I don’t know what it was, but something has changed within me and I’m moving with purpose and aim now rather than wallowing in self-pity and loathsomeness...
If I knew what (or who) happened that rocketed me to this point, I would tell you
(Actually, I would first patent it, market it, make a killing at it, then tell all of you about it...)
All I know is I’m not in a funk anymore... I’m excited about my job, excited about a few job-prospects, and looking forward to a new year.
But the more I think about it... the more I slowly start to realize what happened that helped start me down this road.
It’s been a hard year for me, but then I realized that it hasn’t been anywhere as hard on me as it has for one particular cousin of mine.
In October, she lost her husband in a horrific traffic accident. This past week she lost her older brother (who was under the age of 50) to cancer.
Suddenly... all the problems I had been worrying/complaining about seemed insignificant in comparison… and in talking to my family this past week... I realized that.
Sure, I don’t have a perfect job that pays me what I’m (ahem) worth... but I have a job, I’m healthy, and I have a beautiful and loving wife, two beautiful and loving daughters, my parents, my older brother and an extended family that consists of four Aunts, two Uncles, a plethora of 1st, 2nd and 3rd cousins, two nieces, four nephews and a surfeit of in-laws...
I’m lucky... I’m blessed... I’m happy...
... and I’m back.
About friggin’ time huh?
Friday, December 22, 2006
A Soul-Cleansing Post or A Very Special Episode
Posted by Kemp at Friday, December 22, 2006 5 comments
Labels: Blogstipation, depression, happiness
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